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Name: Czarina
Location: Jersey City, New Jersey, United States
Gender: Female
Interests: Anime // PS3 // Wii // XBOX360 // Korean dramas
Occupation: Piano Student
Industry: Music // Arts
Message: message me
Member Since:
6/30/2005
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| Oh where to start... This is what I've learned for the past 6 days of school.
-Manhattan School of Music is one of the top conservatories in the nation.
-No pressure, no pressure. YEAH OK.
-My day consists of: going to class, eat, sleep [3 hours], drink, and practice like a mofo.
-I am a loner.. I'm alone all of the time I'm there at MSM.
You can find me in my car sleeping, or in one of the practice rooms cursing incessantly.
I die on Tuesdays. HELP ME. 
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| Ah yes... Its been a month since I last blogged here. But anyway, I'm still alive..
At least, thats how I always describe myself from now on.
Everytime someone asks me how I am, my reply is always the same. "I'm alive..."
I'm just going through a lot right now.
I just hope people are willing to understand that.
Every thing is always my fault. I've learned to accept that.
I just hope I survive everyday. That's all i ask.
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| Good morning to anyone who is awake. and Good night to anyone who is sleeping.
As for me.. you guessed it. I am still awake. Just the normal me, embracing the silence of the morning. Except of course for these freaking birds chirping in the damn trees. Mating call? I have no idea.
I've been feeling a bit sad lately. I'm always sad.. but this time, its more than usual.
I guess its because i feel left out more and more these days.
I don't know. Things change. People grow apart.. They go their separate ways, especially if they don't migrate towards the same field..
I just can't help but feel so lonely. I feel so alone.. but I know I'm not.
It just hurts.. but I'll get over it eventually. I always do. 
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| well... i've decided to go back on xanga for a bit.
I changed the layout a little.. still trying to work on things.
But yeah. life sucks as usual.
I'm still my depressed self.
Details on this to come later...
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| i feel like my chest is caving in on me.. like when you can't breathe .. that type of sadness ..
i just feel like i can't do anything right anymore.
its like this every week .. things pile on .. people take out their anger on me ..
and some fail to realize it.. how much they hurt my feelings
yet as always .. i just ignore it and don't say a word.. just so they'll feel better.
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